記。鏡之孤城(かがみの孤城記/Lonely Castle in the Mirror)

偶遇的一套漫畫,原來是先以小說面世,後來漫畫化,再後來就是動畫化。

是個奇幻的也虐心的故事,如果集中在一個人物身上的話,會是個十級虐心的傷心文學作品吧。但聰明的作者用很多人的不幸、虛幻和現實空間的交錯去弱化,或是說轉移視視或側寫,讓作品更易入口,帶到最後,不論在何時,堅持下去、找到出路。也許一開始,重點不在於不幸,而在於堅持、相信有人會伸出援手和自己可以伸出援手。

https://movies.shochiku.co.jp/kagaminokojo/

被遊請入鏡中世界的7人同樣是"去不了"學校的人,後來更得知彼此均是來自同一所學校的學生。約好了新學期第一天一起到保健室,互相卻等不到人,原來是個跨越時間的奇幻故事。

Every tiny steps counts and has impact to the world. Be kind to one and each other.

影AboutVisual。給19歲的我(To My Nineteen Year Old Self)

POST-NOTE

it is revealed as an exploitation of the young girls from the powered side ( the crew, the school…)

And how the movie industry never got a chance to develop healthily and sustain itself.

I wonder, if there is any documentary of specific group of person, could make it a balance work.

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A chance to watch this documentary from Hong Kong. Or I won’t have the motivation to do it.

IMDB

But who just named it in Cantonese pronounce in imdb – Kap sap gau seui dik ngo (smile)

The last time I watched the documentary from Hong Kong officially was “KJ: Music and Life" and it was impressive. Especially the person is now a young man and still active on social media sharing music and skills. The struggle he had while he had as a child would not go away easily.I guess he just grow on it like everyone does.

So am I.

Back to the new documentary. It is about growth and struggles of 5 -6 girls in a the secondary school from form 1 to graduation. Capture their dream job, their family, the change of environment – school and the society of Hong Kong. It is an angel from female teenagers, I am sure there are many more from boys, from queers, for us to find out.

It’s a 130+ minutes cut but you wont find it boring and keep time.

As a adult who has graduated from secondary school for decades, even the open exam has reformed, the vibe of education in school did not changed much so as issues about friends, family, projection of one’s career ,etc. Wondering if it would inspire audiences who are also students in a different way.

It reminds me the importance of education from educator’s word and behaviour. To accept student, everyone is an individual and allow them to express themselves and to explore on their own terms instead of stuff them into a model and judge them for having a different journey out of the so-called mainstream.

It is the school motto : Time is precious, treasure every minute. In Chinese, “寸陰是惜".

I am impressed as the school with religious background, it did not go with the “love trust and faith" that kind of stuff but a more poetic one.

影AboutVisual。The Wonder

Watched it on Netflix:

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt9288822/?ref_=fn_al_tt_1

The beginning of building up the perspective of outsider of the story got my interest and would like to know what is the director or the storyteller wanted to show the audience. But it does not very add much to the story.

Back to the story, the background and the element of religion playing a significant role in it reminded me of another movie “Doubt". That went bad, I mean the ending, led to the loop of tragedy in that powerful yet rotten circle.

But this, “The Wonder" brings humanity, at least to the suffering kid by the nurse, the nun is still miserable like in “Doubt", yeah then she tells a story about the girl leaving. Then the three settle in Australia like a happy family. They chose each other. Yeah, some may argue, the story leaves them no choice. For survival, this is the only choice, to leave everything behind and start over in a new place. They make the choice.

So now, I get what the crew wants the plot to involve/ remind the audience that this is the story to be told. Being in or out, it’s all up to you, your choice. And maybe to release some tension of accusing church or religion? But, not impressive to me.

My wonder is, on the story of nurse, the potion she takes and what does it did to her. Cause, hell knows, I may need that.


I wonder if we will meet again. To see your pretty face and hold our hand, then I will hold you in my arms then not letting you go again.

己AboutMe。20221113

I still miss you and all the good and bad and places we have been to. But it is not my place to tell. For me, to get used to it, to tell myself. I cannot.

Wanted to know how to be a better one too. Should I ask them?

Now I am watching the 3X3 basketball game, it’s weird to me. Cause now I am more sentimental while in the street. It changes.

Please always remember there is a person who will always miss you, like your silly talk when sleeping, and want to live with you in this world.

It was nice to dream about you today, have a face and touching finally, not only just the feeling.

WTF。20221105 Break Up

WTF。20221105 Break Up

Here we go.

Then you wont blame me for not remembering the dates. But why does it matter to you.

You just want someone to be with you, I was lucky showing up at that place at the right timing. So I should not cling on that.

So I never had the chance at the very beginning. What does it mean to you / others about being a girlfriend?

IS it just a culture thing? But O would never know.

I was going to suggest  why don’t you marry me haha so I can get the status or easier to come visit. But how would it work, when I have so many unqualified elements. You decided it should be abandoned.

己AboutMe。29 Oct 2022

It took less than 10 days for the second letter to arrive there. Surprise. Did the plane fly faster now or the letter just catch on the box taking off right away.

How would I know?

The talk was something, abled to see the face, gesture…good casue I really like all of them.

Tears and life. They told me several times, that would never work. Did I show them I had listened just with different opinions.

But then it is time for me to realise and tell myself, the moment their flight take off, we were no longer a couple.

How dumb am I? And I watched the series “uncoupled".

猥瑣 by Poki Ng

老天真待我不錯。

己AboutMe。28 Oct 2022


A long day of work, all events till night. What an unproductive Friday, not relaxing at all. Many fake smile during chit chat.
I miss you so much because I saw an Australian in the event and remind me of you (well, never the accent). Realise that’s how much I miss you and I wanted to tell you and things did not work that way.
What would I do to serve the feeling we (or just me, to be conservative) have to each other. Would Object Feeling tell me what to do.
I’d never had a chance. And it was funny. Cos I was the pessimistic one. That’s karma working. I am glad it is working… at least the belief is comforting.
Am I writing a poem?
Today I learn from an Indian who is from south India, that when they were young, they put the word” Kumar” (boy) in his name or “Kumari” in girl’s name. When they grow up, they will take it away in India. But the guy did not take it away when getting the Hong Kong ID because he wanted to let others in Hong Kong know his gender ot not confusing for not knowing it from the first name.
Today I learn to stay calm when feeling sad. Let it settle for a while. Then form words to express.
What about tomorrow.

Closest I Get by Katie Herzig

己AboutMe。Weekend of 15-16Oct

Was a long Saturday.

Call the “Tuen Mun Cow" for a hike 2 days before Saturday, we want to explore a hidden path. Called it hidden, it was actually a well developed but not easy ( not flat) path but obvious known to the hiking team. We spent quite some time to stand aside cause the teams were always rushing. Seemed like they are trying to conquer the nature… which I wished they were just rushed to the restroom or restaurant before the staff taking a break…

The path led us to a small bamboo brush, a stream, many jack fruit trees and tall trees with all the epiphytes. Nice try but a note to me next time, need gloves please.

Then it’s time too take a chill shower, probably the last one this year. Tidy up a bit, then headed to my friend’s and her cats.

It’s been a long time from our last meetup because of her family issue. Meetup was to be each other’s company. We watched a lot from Disney+, from the vet documentary, to Women in Taiwan, then to My Date with Vampire. We just could stop and changed our mind from yakiniku to order takeaway. We picked banh mi, and I am glad we had it, tasted so good. And it’s at Tuen Mun!

On my way to home, I saw a mother boar eating with her two children one the roadside. Felt sorry for them, that they had to look for food at the area so close to the evil human and really really worried they got caught or killed by the government… less than 2 minutes, saw a couple walking their Seymour. Did not react right away, second thought made me remind them , there were boar family and should pay attention.

Was a tired night……..

Slept the half day of Sunday, back was in pain again….but I refused to leave my bed. Miss the baby too.